Hi, I'm Krishna.
Here you'll see my inane ramblings mingled with a lot of things I like (family, friends, living things in general, philosophy, books, tea, art, music, religions of all kinds, surfing, baking, puns, and more).
it’s interesting but also terrifying to see the ways that capitalism has shaped our language and how we talk about bodies. can you be useful? can you be a productive member of society? can you work? can you make money? that is all this comes back to. so much ableist and fat phobic rhetoric is, at its core, does your body enable you to produce capital. if not, then you are useless and don’t deserve humanity.
Girl Reading on Sofa (1920). Isaac Lazarus Israëls (Dutch, 1865-1934).
Israëls returned to Holland for the duration of the war, where he worked primarily as a portrait painter. Amongst his sitters was Magaretha Gertrud Zelle, better known as Mata Hari, executed as a spy in France in 1917. Other sitters included Johanna van Gogh-Bonger and the feminist physician Aletta Jacobs, although he also portrayed ordinary subjects such as girls in the street, girls reading, and telephone operators.
I don’t start taking estrogen ‘til next month, but what the hell - figured I’d get some makeup and some cheap clothes and see how that makes me feel. I had to take maybe 100 selfies to find a few that weren’t excessively manly looking in some way (mostly the beard showing through the makeup in most lighting situations), but I probably felt the most comfortable I’ve ever felt in my body. I didn’t expect that just changing clothes would make me feel so much better.
Anyways. I’ll probably start doing this on a regular basis, even in public, once I amass some decent clothes. I’m not worried about being read as female and I resent the pressure that I feel to not even bother presenting myself as female until I can pass as such. I don’t want to put my life on hold - waiting for hormones to take full effect, saving up money for surgeries - just to avoid making people uncomfortable with my gender bending antics.
My parents are convinced that everyone is against transgendered individuals and are therefore using that to justify their stopping me from going ahead with my hormone treatment. everyone that reblogs this will go in a book for my parents. Please Help!
[A painting of peacock], Edo period, 19c.
hanging scroll,ink and colors on silk
These two hand studies, done entirely in ballpoint pen, are now available for purchase as high quality prints.